I told a boy i liked him and yet again i found out that the feelings werent the same... i probably shouldnt post this on here but i feel so silly.
I honestly sometimes think im defected.
Sorry this is a miserable post.... im at work and feel so empty and i just needed to vent.
So i constantly sit here thinking.... no one gets it, where as im sure some people do but in moments like these you always feel so alone.
I want to leave work and go crawl up in a ball. I think the thing that is upsetting is that i saw that this one could have worked.... and it would have been normal and healthy.... i guess normal and healthy dont work into my world of craziness.
Life is so confusing and hurtful, i see myself getting stronger in everything in general but when it comes to love and relationships im more hopeless then the average joe.
I feel like people have watched me over the years and judged me by the fact that i have never been able to sustain a normal balanced relationship and its not because i dont want one but its because most men havent paid much attention to me as im always the 'friend' which im sure some of you guys have dealt with in the past. I know you shoudlnt care what people think but unfortunately i do care :(