Doing 'a runner...

What a lovely way to start a Friday morning... come in to find a tenant has done a runner.... thats always fun.

This week has NOT been my week.... everyday i wake up and feel a little meh. One of my close friends from work has been on holidays and i know this factors into it as she props me up alot at work and without her here im feeling pretty blah.

When i was on the 6 small meals from the dietitian i felt energetic and i was incredibly positive about the whole thing but now that im not eating anywhere near as much my energy levels suck big time and its making me pretty depressed in the mornings.

Being on solids now and in fear of eating anything solid is making things quite frustrating... im lazy when it comes to cooking (i have been better recently) but im all about things being easy especially when i have no energy. Everyone talks about high protein diets, im barely eating any meats at the moment... actually id say none, you can call me VEGO lol. So what do you guys have for a high protein dinner? should i be cooking more mince maybe although the doc didnt recommend it, i need to cook more fish but buying fresh fish is annoying (can you buy packet fish?). I wish there was agood lap band recipes book, or maybe there is and i was unaware?

I live off coffee now to keep me alive.

I have 2 parties to go to tonight so coffee better work or i will sleep at both of them. Ill attempt at eat maybe some of the party food just to see if it goes down but dont worry i wont be that adventurous and ill probably decide on the healthier options if there are any.

I went to an appointment yesterday and the woman i had a meeting with had lap band surgery for 5 years.... when i left the appointment i felt more depressed then i ever had. She laughed that she thinks she s a bulimic and admits so easily she cheats with the band all the time. She doesnt liek fruit or veg and eats bad food all the time, she was telling em how i could eat certain take aways and what not. GOD DAMNNN i dont wanna know about that. It was horrid. It made me want to be healthier then ever meeting her. Her eyes looked sullen and her skin looked bad... i want to glow and look healthy not skinny and drawn out.

Seeing all the women who have lost so much weight in the year makes me so proud of them.... i love seeing photos of the change and it makes me so incredibly happy for them... and i also get excited that i hope thatll be me just before im 26!

I should be working but i am hating on today and this week..... i need to go buy a 50th birthday present... im thinking a lovely book would be nice!

I loved Spirulina... it felt like it gave me energy

Also.... i have nutriChew orange chewable multivitamins... they taste horrid.... any other ideas for me here in AUS? I used to have Spirulina in my optifast everymorning and i felt that was doing me the world of good but now im not having it because i dont have breakfast anymore.

Nutrichew- i hate these chews they taste nasty and i dont feel like they are giving me any energy.

So things are ok but not great...i hope next week is a better week.

I have lost no weight in 5 days, i keep fluctuating between 1-2 kilos on the scales but it still is TTOTM and because of my Implanon TTOTM is usually pretty erratic and horrible .... :(