Sometimes i really hate my obsessive personality. I cant do things to a small extent... i take them to the extreme..... its like with smoking, drinking, eating.... god all of it.
Im currently obsessing over my thoughts for Anton... it just doesn't stop, i swim and think of him, i work and think of him and i eat whilst thinking of him..... why cant i just be normal.
Im considering getting facebook back again... maybe temporarily. If it doesn't work out ill delete it again but i feel like i have put myself in a cardboard box and have segregated myself from a lot of the people i value incredibly.... why should i block myself off from some of the amazing people i know because of my angry thoughts and beliefs on facebook. I still dont agree with a lot of things about facebook and it does still anger me... but for the fact that i miss out on information on music i love and big things happening to the people around me makes me feel like im in the stoneage. Am i stupid in having the beliefs that i do about facebook... should i just become like everyone else and conform to it..... yeah i guess i should, sometimes its not bad being a fish maybe ill just swim along for a little while.
I hate the fact that sometimes im like this..... i will ponder for the next couple of days as to whether i facebook it up again...