BYOC

1. “Which one would you rather?”…

Tom Cruise or
Tom Brady?

Mr. Big (Sex and the City) or
Tony Little (excercise nut)?

Whoopi Goldberg or
Making whoopi?

Im going to be horrible and say neither for Tom Cruise and Tom Brady... they both suck... more so because i have no idea who Tom Brady is and he just looks like a football douche. Tom Cruise is a knob. OMG where did these people come from and why are we using compaisons between them, Mr Big and Tony LIttle are both fugly so yet again... none.
Ill vote Making Whoopi tho!

2. I know some of us have discussed this before but I’ve been thinking and hearing it more in blog land as many of you are getting closer to goal. How do you feel about plastic surgery? What lengths would you go to in order to achieve it?

I never used to be ok with plastic surgery, i thought people should embrace their flaws but since i have had the surgery i have changed my mind. A friend made me realise that if there is something in your life that is making you miserable that can be fixed, well why not try and fix it then?

3. What’s your favorite website?

I dont have definite favourites... i still love www.homestarrunner.com even though i dont go there as much anymore.

4. What’s your best tip for having a great vacation?

Dont get worked up and stressed especially if you are going over seas, be smart which means watch your monies and what not but still jsut chill and go have fun because thats why you are going on the trip.

5. Repeat question….which blog or comment stuck with you the most this week and why?

I really enjoyed seeing JOey from ::Volume Control:: her blog is vibrate and interesting and i love her style, her photos make me so excited for when i get smaller!

As we speak...

Im eating a small cup of salted peanuts.... you know what its so bad that im doing this but im so enjoying doing it. I had a craving for salted peanuts and passionfruit softdrink... so guess what i bought.... yep both of them. Doing all that whilst watching Reba.

When i was at the shops driving out some guys in a van yelled something out to me and i dont think it was positive... i cant wait for the day guys dont yell stupid stuff and i look like evryone else.... it makes me sad.

On a positive note.....having time off is lovely :D
Walked this morning with the dog, babysat my niece then did some washing... now im chilling.
Going to a Cd launch tomorrow night with my friends band... ill take photos... ill probably feel fat and guilty after todays consumption ahahah.

Signing off for now spock!

Wishful thinking....

I wish....

1. I wish that someone would take me out for some crazy Mexican food.... its been so long and i know i could eat some of it, it would be such a good treat. It would also be nice to be a special person who would take me.
2. I wish i could just go out and buy the lounge suite i have been dying to buy for the past 7 months..... i have the money and could spoil myself.... but cant justify it as things kind of feel up in the air at the moment and until i have some security im not going to spend that money.
3. I wish my stomach wasnt as sore as it is right now.
4. I wish i didnt struggle getting out of bed in the morning for my walks.
5. I wish my dog wouldnt be so territorial and would stop biting people as he is such a lovely dog.
6. I wish i was Kelly Osbourne.... im obsessed with the Osbourne family and wish wish wish that was my crazy ass family, minus the crazy drug stuff.
7. I wish i had the creative intelligence of Banksy.
8. I wish i was a stylist or an interior designer to the rich..... im so excited for when i have lost the weight and am able to reflect my style how i want to without my weight holding me back.
9. I wish i cooked more and enjoyed cooking more.... cooking for one person just seems stupid and i dont see the point half the time... im content with scrambled eggs where as i know if i had someone else to cook for i would make some amazing things.
10. I wish i had the amazing talent of ZOey Deschanel and her incredible looks.
11. I wish i didnt bite my nails from stress and i wish my thumbs didnt look like toes.
12. I wish i could own a true Salvador Dali piece.
13. I wish i could own my dream federation home with a beautiful garden that someone else could maintain and i could move away from this horrid ghetto street that i do suit what so ever.
14. I wish i could do my hair like this.
15. I wish a talented, intelligent and passionate man would fall inlove with me that i was proud to stand by and encourage.
16. I wish i could travel in the next year and start experiencing the world more.
17. I wish i enjoyed gardening more.
18. I wish i went to the ocean more and breathed in the sea air.
19. I wish i didnt contradict myself constantly.
20. I wish my wishes come true.
    

Surprise 2nd Fill!

Yesterday turned out a little different from expected.

I was dreading my 2nd fill as i totally didnt want to go back to the doc i had for the last fill i had. I went to see my Surgeon Dr Watson with my friend Jess as she had her first consult and when i was there he offered to do my fill as i didnt like the other doc....well even though i paid $200 (i get $113 back from health funds) for my fill it was worth it... so much more at ease when he did it and he even congratulated me on my weight loss which made me feel so positive and even more excited to be good to my band! so although he costs more i will be going to him in the future as its so much better... although my band account doesnt appreciate it this morning.... seems im ona super budget this week after just having a heart attack looking at it ahahah.

Im taking Friday and Monday off work this week so i can have a long weekend...i need some Ashlee time and this will be great for me to chill out a bit.

Ohhhh so anyways with the fill.... i had another full 1mil put in... so that means now 5ml in 10ml band. I havent tried eating ANYTHING, well i havent eaten anything at all since yesterday lunch time. Im to scared.... im going to take it nice and slow. My burps were weird when i first got it done.... i couldnt burp... id need to burp then itd roll back inside me and felt horrible... but its ok im burping normalish now :D

On a HUGE positive, ive lost some more.... now i have lost 20.9kilos (45.98lbs) in something like 57 days! Woooooooooooo. Finally it feels like its showing and paying off..... another 10kilos and i will really feel it which is exciting.

So yes feeling super duper.

Poor puppy didnt get a walk this morning because the fill has made me so nauseous i didnt feel like walking so he cried.. but tomorrow i promise to take him and ill play with him after work today :D

This is face pull to express the feeling my 2nd fill is giving me... ahahah

I asked the girl at work to take some full body shots of me.... this is what happend when we did... ahahah

Coffee Coffee I NEEED Coffee!

I havent had my coffee this morning yet because im waiting to go have one with a girlfriend in about 30mins across the road from my work.... im dying here and really really really want one ahahha. I didnt realise how much i relied on them.

Not much to report on my side of the world.... this morning i went for a bit of a longer walk it was about 40 mins rather then my 30 then i came home and did a little bit of boxing on Wiifit and hullahooping LOL! Weight is staying about the same but its not surprising as i havent eaten all that good in the past few days.....

Last night i went out with a couple of girlfriends, i hadnt seen one of them in 3 or 4 years since she left Perth.... she is the most effervescent person you will ever meet, everyone is drawn to her.

We went to The View in freo and had coffee and samples of desserts and antipasto platters ahahahha oh me oh my.

It was lovely catcing up with her.... hopefully she will come to the movies tonight with a couple of friends to see the Inception.

I wore the same dress i wore to the ball but with a 3/4 black shirt under it and wanted to show you some bettter shots seeing as i cant get full length shots i thought id take top and bottom shots ahahahha I tied a knot in the bottom of the dress.... made it more unique

Vanity shot...even tho i look like a fish smacked me in the face lol
This is my friend mike... i went to his house before going out last night... he looks like a doofus in this pic but i loved his eyes in it! Aahahh also i pushed his hair to the side to make him look like Justin Bieber
This is one of my friends waiting patiently (the service wasnt the best)
This is the empty plate of desserts... hmmmm
All of us together.... it had been a long time....i look horrible and fat.
Myself and my friend back from Europe
The toilets are so pretty in the restaurant and i love their mirrors so i took a shot ahah
I took this photo this morning to show you another small NSV... i bought this dress when i had lost my previous 10kilos and when i gained the weight it didnt fit and now it does again :) YAY! no wasting of money here.... i know i look like a dick aahha.

So thats it kids.... nothing to special in my neck of the woods, i just cancelled coffee with my friend because she changed the times... im soooo getting me a coffee now!

Ps. eating habits have not been good but have my 2nd fill on Wednesday!!

pps. go with my friend today for her first appointment with the surgeon and im super excited yay!

OMG GUESSSSSS WHATTTTT!!!!

I had a non scale victory............!!!!!!!!!!! i didnt get what they were until yesterday when i had one.... ok so i will get to the NSV soon but as for now im going to tell a little of what happened.

So as most of you would know..... i couldnt find an outfit to wear to my work ball... im incredibly particular about my style (as my poor friend jess just found out) so it was becoming impossible for me to find anything.
Yesterday (the night of the ball) was my final day to go out looking. I messaged my good friend JEss (godsend friend might i add) and she was 100% willing to come with me to find something in the city, she was so determind that we would find something and she was such a good friend. My god none of my other friends would have put up with me but she was FANTASTIC.... walked through a million stores found a million things and even put up with my whinging. SHE IS AWESOME.

Onto my NSV.... this came from walking into the first store MYER we went into the girls department and picked out a few pieces... i went to try a couple of and i was in the change room with JEss and i tried on this black silk size 16 dress.... now im telling you i NEVER fit anything fitted at a size 16, it all has to be stretch... and IT FIT but was too short aahahha (im way tall) and was like $400 so we were like YAY but no. Another dress i tried on reminded me of something out of bewitched or i dream of a jeanie that the mother wears... now JEss wasnt sure at first but i fell inlove when i put it on..... there will be a photo below... this dress was AMAZING and i loved it but it was $500. Im going to wait until a sale goes on and if its still there im going to buy it.

So after parading around a million stores and my poor friend desperately not wanting to fail we went into our last shop... guess what! thats where i found my dress.... it was a browny olive cloth dress that we tied down the bottom. It was orginally $129 then reduced to $90 then they took a further 20% off so i paid something like $68... much better then $500 ahahah. After that we went and bought me a heap of cheap jewellry and i was set.

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO JESS AND HER BEING AMAZING! x(ps JEss is going to see a surgeon about the surgery and im so excited for her)

So here are the photos of the days events....


This was my outfit for when we went shopping, i took this shot just before Jess came over to go shopping
One of the first dresses we tried on.... this is the $500 dress which im praying will go on sale so i can go back and buy it. Ps see that lovely girl to the right of me in the photo, thats jess my savior.

There were storm trooopers in the city.... i got excited!

We got Kebabs for lunch... i had falafel and salad with egg.... NOM NOM

This is me when i got home trying on the dress with the jewellry and experimenting with my hair
I decided to leave my hair out and to the side... seemed more formal.ME at the ballMy work friend Anne and iMy mum and i before we went inOUr dinners, i had the beef but couldnt eat it all as it was medium rare and i like well done.There was also chicken breast servedThe dessert were these weird studel things with a berry sauceThis was a pic of our table

I came home early with my parents... i wasnt enjoying myself... i always feel awkward and somehow i always end up on my own.... so depressing.... so when my parents said they were ready to leave i was pretty much running out of the place. I get sick of going to events single... its pretty lame.

Ohhhhhhhhhh and another ps.... the dress i ended up buying was a size 14.... umm WOO! :D

Edit note- I totally forgot to say... i havent weighed myself for days.... i kind of let myself go on the weekends.... i do super well during the week so i give myself a little break on the weekends but im sure ill pay for it. Im also dreaming of the day that my neighbours jump off a brick wall or i eventually get another place because they are so noisy and disrespectful of everyone else in the street... his a druggy knob... i wish he would get caught and taken away. I simply cant understand how everyone else in my street cant hate them...

So there you go guys... some good and some bad.

Ash x

Im daft... ahahah

Ahahahah im a douche... i didnt get this whole versatile blooger award, i thought people were just nominating me and i didnt do anything... then i realised im meant to do it too!

Here goes kids!

I was nominated by a few ladies Liz, Maree and Sam. If i missed someone im super sorry.... like i said i didnt realise that when your nominated you follow on the Versatile blogger awards.... Im new to all of this.

“7 things you don’t know about me”

1. My dad lost his leg in 1995 due to cancer, i was the age of 10, this has affected me to this day.... my upbringing was not like everyone elses due to this.... it also made me the woman i am today but i still have some hang ups about it.
2. I have a sister who is 7 years older then me who is happily married and id says shes a yuppy hippy... shes very conscious of our environment and the world that my niece is being brought up in. She gave us my wonderful niece Poppy and this little girl is so super cool.
3. Im ridiculously opinionated and debate all the time. Friends who love me, have hung around because they love that side of my personality, but some cant handle the fact that i say it as it is.... i never say anything to hurt anyone, its only in hopes they will become a better person in some of the advice i give.
4. When i was 14 i tried killing myself by over dosing on my dads pills..... this was a really rough time for me... i think everyone has teenager woes, i certainly had them. I hated myself and the world around me. Being a manic depressant it lets me see things in another light which isnt always a good thing.
   
5. I LOVE CHOCOLATE.... its my best friend but we have a love hate relationship....dag nab it.
6. Im ridiculously fascinated in serial killers and whacked out religions and cults. Its an interesting thing to think how the mind works and why so many seek out recluse in some more of group or community. Im saddened by the fact alot of people cant find inner strength. When i was younger i used to obsessively read up about serial killers.... how interesting would it to know why the mind does what it does.
7. I have never been inlove... (other then with chocolate).

I would love to nominate another bunch of wonderful women but most of you have been nominated from what i can see.... so im not sure there is any point?

Thanks guys.... YOU ROCK.