BYOC Friday... quick my friday isnt here for much longer...

1. Let’s brag a little….what’s the best perk you’ve ever had in your job (current or past)? Any employment counts - even if you’re a stay at home mom – you have perks (and the hardest job ever in my opinion).

I guess the current perk in the role im in at the moment is pretty boring.... i kind of have flexi hours, working for my parents have made things a little easier on me, the pressure isnt there as much and they understand me incredibly.... they know if stuff is getting tough and let me chuck a 'sickie' to get my head back around things.
I can say im going to an appointment and really go have lunch with friends but in all honesty i dont really do this.... i dont really lie... i just go and do it, say what im doing and not care what they think.

2. Do you ever lie in your blog?

Im not sure.... i dont think i have, i will admit i hold things back and havent really let myself totally loose on this blog yet..... i think that my photos lie alot.... i think i take shots that make me look good when really you guys have no idea how big i actually am.... im tall so my weight is evened out over all of me but i dunno you havent seen the real me yet... but ill get there and show you kids soon enough!

3. What do you wear to bed?

Im lame... nothing special, i dont own pjs, i have this old baggy cloth dress that i have turned into pjs that in summer i wear.... and in winter its tracky pants and a jumper or t shirt... so crap. When i loose the weight i might wear cute pjs, right now i dont own pjs as i dont like any of the bigger sized ones so until i fit into cute pjs i wont bother.

4. Where do you go for advice?

Good question.... i have no idea. For band stuff my brother to another mothers sister who has her band for 3 years and is super helpful and obviously you guys.
I dont really get advice off anyone.... i usually deal with stuff on my own. My bestie who lives 2 hours away i call her alot for advice but i dont usually ask advice when its personal stuff... usually stupid stuff i ask anyone ahhaah.

5. Repeat question. Make someone a superstar without using a blog award. What comment or blog stuck with you the most this week and why?

Sandy-Lees blog named "Sliming, Stuck and PBing, Oh My!" this was very insightful and gave me a better understanding of the who PB'ing thing.... i havent had any of these things happen to me yet but being prepared is great... even tho some of it created more questions for me im glad she posted it because it got me understand how hard this band thing can be.
THANKS SANDY... YOU ROCK!

You guys are so cute,funny,awesome,amazing... the list goes on and on!

Ladies, ladies, ladies... you are all so wonderful!

Here i was thinking i was stuck at 29 and that was a huge no no... now at 36 and proud and excited by new friends/followers!

I loved the comments on the chicken in a can ... ahahah!

Sandy made me LOL with this one- "I never really understood the PB name. You don't have to be "stuck" to PB. So burp like a guy and tell everyone you have to get the air out. Go ahead and fart too, as long as it isn't a Productive fart:-)"

AHAHAHA.... best ever!

Im still stuck... no movement on the scales but i know that this week has been a lazy week for eating and being strict on myself in general... being half in and out of work has meant i have eaten more... when im at work i eat so much less!

On the positive side of things... this morning i walked the dog for 30mins then came home and played on Wii the game Just Dance which im sure some of you have heard about... i did this for 30mins and i was in total sweats at the end... good work out!

This song is my favourite and gets me pumped, i wish the whole game had songs and dances like this one.... it was ROCKING!

Here is a song from the band im currently listening to... you guys might like it!

So cute!

This weekend i plan on doing alot more of Just Dance and burning some serious calories! I feel so much better when i exercise i dont understand why i dont do it more.

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY HEY.... well on my side of the world it is ahahaha.

Great friend from years back has come back from Europe and i havent seen her for like 4 years and i cant wait to catch up with her and fill her in on everything, then she is moving back to Melb and i will go visit... so many friends live in Melb now... i might have to move there ahaha.

Picture time!

This is the logo for my paintings (this is part of one of my bettie page paintings)

My favourite painting i did that i will probably never sell.

This is from last year when i had lost about 10kilos (then i gained that and more back) its a flattering shot of me in my bathers

Myself and the boy i used to have a crush, we had a weird and whacko relationship, i dont see him really anymore.

POrtrait i did of myself last year in winter when i had my bangs.

Super fun happy times.... bring on the weekend... heres hoping i get through work today being sane.

Today i will consume-

9:00 Large skinny cappuccino 1 sugar

12:00pm 3 cruskits with low fat philly cheese, shaved chicken and alfalfa's

2:00pm 1 tub of dairy farmers 98% fat free strawberry yoghurt

As from here on.... im not sure ahahah.

Am i stuck on 29 followers?!

How odd..... it seems im stuck on 29 followers or maybe no other people want to follow me.... ahahah strange.

I LOVE MASTERCHEF when its over i have no idea what i will watch.

This past week has been not so good...like i said i hate being negative but unfortunately when it rains it pours and its pouring quite a bit for me.
Wisdom teeth are a-holes but going to the dentist they have told me to grin and bare it because they are coming through fine... blerg.

Work has been hell, everything has gone wrong and im slowly fixing the problems but then the receptionist rings me all upset and that she cant deal with it.... i wish i could walk out the office and people could talk to people to calm them enough until i next get to talk to them. I love my job but sometimes it makes me want to pull out my hair....

In the past i havent had a very good relationship with my family, it wasnt hell but it was pretty rough and i felt very alone. The past 2 years things have changed and it seems my family is becoming more loving and concerned ... mum constantly tells me she is thinking of me especially as i live on my own and do it all on my own and even my dad rang me last night to see how i was (trust me... this NEVER happens) so on the family front things are good other then me not talking to my sister which means missing out on seeing my niece. Thats a story in itself.

One of my friends came over last night and i was talking about how reflective i have become... im scared that i did this all to late... should i have done this 3 years ago? have i waited to long?
Im worried i wont find love as every year i get older.... i dont like to ramble or make a big deal about being single because im independent and proud but i do think itd be nice to share my life with someone.... unfortunately as im getting older i think im getting pickier with the kind of man i want to be with. I want to feel right in myself and in my skin, thats why i have done the surgery and i think that once i find myself again there might be a chance for love but as for now i dont think i could love anyone when im not really loving myself.

I have been eating badly in the past 2 days or maybe 3 days i cant think.... my portion sizes have like doubled and im not feeling full... whether thats head full or stomach full im not sure sometimes i still think i eat because im home alone and there isnt anything better to do but things have certainly changed since the surgery and im no where near as bad.
Im excited for my next fill.... i really think i need some more restriction... although i dread seeing the surgeon guy because last time he bamboozled me and made me cry, i also hope they dont make me wait for and hour before i go into the appointment.

As for the scales..... thats a no go zone for me right now, every time i get on it it just depresses me because its not going anywhere. I wanted to getting into walking this week but unfortunately i havent done much because i have been miserable with my wisdom teeth.

I think i need to find some more structure with meal planning.... i think i need to set myself out a nice little meal plan for each day of the week so i know what im eating and stick to it for awhile.... that is my next goal.

im dreading work tomorrow :(

This post was very much full of hooopla!

Hmmm?!

I have HUGE burps after nearly every meal.... once i have burped i usually feel 100% better... after reading Sandys blog it is making me confused as to whether this is a good or bad thing and is this a PB?

Nearly every time after i eat i have these massive burps that go for forever. If i slouch when i eat then stand up i burp and its so relieving.

I thought PB was when you vomited but it seems im wrong?

Is this burping ok? or is burping bad for the band?

Ahaha i sound stupid...

Negativity sucks!

Seems a lot of my posts these days have been kind of negative.... i feel bad. Although i dont have much thats positive to blog about today.

Im off work sick because last night i was up all night with one of my wisdom teeth. So this morning i could barely open my mouth and its in so much pain, im not talking to anyone because it hurts and of course there is drama at work when im not there :(

I have forgotten about my band for today... i ate some noodles i cooked last night and i had a crumpet.... meh i feel poo.

Lets pray to the tooth fairy that i dont need to get the tooth pulled, right now i just want it to just push through and calm down ahahha.

Ok this is wrong...

ok so i just had a whole bowl of these special noodles i make.

i make egg noodles with bacon bits, eggs, Parmesan cheese, onion, basil and chilli flakes with butter and a little bit of vegetable oil. Not healthy..... i really dont think its healthy at all... anyways i thought stuff it ill have something a bit naughty tonight and make it... and it was yum.... and i ate a whole bowl of it... it was probably 2 cups worth.... oh my :(

Arent i meant to throw heavier stuff up?! how am i eating this much and this kind of stuff?!

Oh and i also shopped when i was SUPER hungry and ate like 4 pieces of dairy milk chocolate.... today = fail.

"Baby how long do i have to waitttt..."

It seems i have reached BANDSTER HELLL!!!! Still no weight loss.... i also hate my scales and might buy some new ones... hahaha imagine if i buy some of im bigger on the other set... now that would be pretty depressing. So yep i think its 8 days and not one little bit of weightloss... im feeling pretty good at the moment so im not letting it get me down.

Today seems to be taking its sweeeeet time.... yesterday flew and today seems to be draggin something crazy.

QUESTION FOR YOU?! (YES... YOU!)

What was one of the most unusual/weird films you have ever watched?

I know thats not band related but i just was curious.... one of my favourite odd ball films of all time (and i have watched some whack films... try hedwig and the angry inch ahaha) it The Rock Horror Picture Show.... man Tim Curry... his so hot hot hot in this film... yep his in drag but it makes him incredibly sexy...

Its 11:55am here.... so far ive only had my 9:00am Large skinny latte. Im hungry but not.... I have my 2nd fill booked for the 4th August... im excited and nervous for it as i think it will create some good restriction for me, im hoping itll cut down my portion size as im not eating to much right now but im having big'ish portions.

Heres me drinking my token morning coffee at work..

Loosing some more weight would be nice too!

I did my hair a bit different this morning so i thought id post a pic (i love when people post pics so i thought other people might like it too... hope you guys dont get annoyed that i post so much?!) my hair looks frizzy in the photo but its not thattt bad in person ahaha.

When i have curly'ish hair

Also here is a pic of my dog.... last night when we were just chilling out he looked hilarious the way he was lying down.... this photo doesnt give it justice at how funny he looked.

Harry

Also I know a few of you have been asking what Cruskits are..... hmmm how to describe, they are a light cracker which when you eat the no fat ones you could eat a whole box as they are so yummy and made with alot of butter but i have the light ones. Here is a weblink to a nutritional info

http://www.calorieking.com.au/foods/calories-in-crispbreads-cruskits-light-98-fat-free_f-Y2lkPTQ5MTIyJmJpZD0yNiZmaWQ9NzQwMTkmZWlkPTk0NzE3MDUyJnBvcz00JnBhcj0ma2V5PUFybm90dCdz.html

They are pretty tasty for a snack bread/cracker.... its a bit lame you dont have them in USA.